I want to do a blog about a few things I learned in 2010....Here goes nothing!
1. For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
As Wade and I struggled with infertility, I often joked that God was trying to show me it was HIS way, not mine. In MY plan for me, I would have had 2 wonderful children, one boy and one girl, by the time I was 30. Can you guess how old I was when I found out I was pregnant.....Yep, 30! I truly believe that part of our struggle was because I was continuing to live by MY plan, not GOD's plan. So, from this point on, I am letting go of my plans for me!
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| Wade and I - Christmas 2010 |
2. Aside from God, my family and friends are the most important things to me. While I have always felt this way, in the last few years, my friends have rallied around and supported me in ways that I never even realized. How my friends felt about me was never more evident to me than on Nov 4th when Wade and I made our big announcement at the "gender reveal party". I will never forget the way I felt in that moment. Seeing the joy and love in each of their eyes was truly overwhelming. I still cry thinking about it! Thank you, God, for blessing me with the most amazing support system. I am truly blessed beyond measure!
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| It's a boy! |
3. My Mom is with me in my heart, and she is with Jesus in Heaven. When my Mom first passed away, I would go to the cemetery every chance I got. It became unhealthy for me. I would be fine, then I would go to the cemetery and cry for days. When I was there, all the memories of the hospital and funeral came flooding back. I couldn't see past those sad times. So, after many internal struggles with myself, I decided that I would quit going so often. It broke my heart at first, because I felt like I was abandoning her, but after much prayer, I felt peace. God showed me that she wasn't really there anyway. She continues to LIVE with Him and in my heart. So, now, only on occasion do I visit the cemetery.
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| Mom and Terry - Nov 2008 |
4. Being pregnant is harder than I ever thought! I suppose because I had such a hard time getting pregnant, I thought that I would LOVE being pregnant. While I do love being pregnant, I do not actually love being pregnant. I think you know what I mean! I am super excited to be having a baby, and I am beyond thankful that God has trusted me enough to be the mother of one of his precious children, however, it just is not as easy as I thought!
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| My sweet Brinson at 28 weeks |
