I want to do a blog about a few things I learned in 2010....Here goes nothing!
1. For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
As Wade and I struggled with infertility, I often joked that God was trying to show me it was HIS way, not mine. In MY plan for me, I would have had 2 wonderful children, one boy and one girl, by the time I was 30. Can you guess how old I was when I found out I was pregnant.....Yep, 30! I truly believe that part of our struggle was because I was continuing to live by MY plan, not GOD's plan. So, from this point on, I am letting go of my plans for me!
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| Wade and I - Christmas 2010 |
2. Aside from God, my family and friends are the most important things to me. While I have always felt this way, in the last few years, my friends have rallied around and supported me in ways that I never even realized. How my friends felt about me was never more evident to me than on Nov 4th when Wade and I made our big announcement at the "gender reveal party". I will never forget the way I felt in that moment. Seeing the joy and love in each of their eyes was truly overwhelming. I still cry thinking about it! Thank you, God, for blessing me with the most amazing support system. I am truly blessed beyond measure!
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| It's a boy! |
3. My Mom is with me in my heart, and she is with Jesus in Heaven. When my Mom first passed away, I would go to the cemetery every chance I got. It became unhealthy for me. I would be fine, then I would go to the cemetery and cry for days. When I was there, all the memories of the hospital and funeral came flooding back. I couldn't see past those sad times. So, after many internal struggles with myself, I decided that I would quit going so often. It broke my heart at first, because I felt like I was abandoning her, but after much prayer, I felt peace. God showed me that she wasn't really there anyway. She continues to LIVE with Him and in my heart. So, now, only on occasion do I visit the cemetery.
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| Mom and Terry - Nov 2008 |
4. Being pregnant is harder than I ever thought! I suppose because I had such a hard time getting pregnant, I thought that I would LOVE being pregnant. While I do love being pregnant, I do not actually love being pregnant. I think you know what I mean! I am super excited to be having a baby, and I am beyond thankful that God has trusted me enough to be the mother of one of his precious children, however, it just is not as easy as I thought!
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| My sweet Brinson at 28 weeks |
I was so touched reading this, Bonnie. I can't imagine all the emotions you must have been going through this past year and especially these last few months as you await meeting Brinson! Just know that no matter how hard it seems now, not sleeping, being uncomfortable, and especially during the birth, you will forget pretty much all of that as soon as you get to hold your little one. I think God sometimes puts us through all these difficulties so we will glorify Him more for all that we have been given. And you know especially how precious every moment is with your family. You are going to be a wonderful mom. Praying for you!
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