Life as Brinson's mommy came a little early for me! On March 2, 2011 at 1:25 PM, Brinson was born at 35 weeks and 6 days. His little lungs were under-developed, so he spent 5 days in the special care nursery on oxygen and monitors. We were able to finally hold him when he was 5 days old. Those were the longest 5 days of my life! It was so hard to be separated from him. Even though he was just down the hall, it felt like he was a million miles away. I wanted so badly to start caring for him! Eventually he was moved to the well-baby nursery, and we were able to bring him home the day he turned one week old. Praise the Lord!!! God is Good!!!
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| Holdin' tight to that passy! |
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| First Feeding (he's hold the bottle) |
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| First Family Photo |
Motherhood......
Where to begin! Well, I love being a Mommy! It's the most wonderful feeling to look into your baby's eyes and know that you were part of creating such a precious life! The unconditional love that I feel every time I look at Brinson is completely overwhelming and all-consuming. There have been many times that I look into his sweet little face and just fallen to pieces. Not because I am sad, but because I am so overcome with joy, happiness and love. I will not lie and say it has all been a cake walk! I have thought to myself, "what have I done"; however, for every one time I have thought that, there have been a thousand times where I thought "wow, look what I have done".
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| The car ride home |
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| He's always thinking about something! |
Being a mom is scary, too! I cannot stand to have him out of my sight. I am so concerned that something is going to happen to him, and I am not going to know what to do. I wake up multiple times during the night just to make sure he is still breathing. Whenever he drinks his bottle too fast and begins to choke and gag, I start crying! He spit up the other day, and I thought something was seriously wrong! I never pictured myself as the over-protective parent, but I am, and I cannot help it! Although I know it is impossible, I am on a quest to be the "perfect mommy". Again, not something I ever thought I would do. However, I cannot help myself. I know that I am going to make mistakes, but I am trying my best! Despite my future mistakes, I am sure that no matter what, Brinson will always love me and think that I truly am a "perfect mommy"!
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| "Will you please quit taking my picture" |
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| Sweetest Face Ever! I love this pic!!! |
