Life as Brinson's Mommy

Life as Brinson's mommy came a little early for me!  On March 2, 2011 at 1:25 PM, Brinson was born at 35 weeks and 6 days.   His little lungs were under-developed, so he spent 5 days in the special care nursery on oxygen and monitors. We were able to finally hold him when he was 5 days old.  Those were the longest 5 days of my life!  It was so hard to be separated from him.  Even though he was just down the hall, it felt like he was a million miles away.  I wanted so badly to start caring for him!  Eventually he was moved to the well-baby nursery, and we were able to bring him home the day he turned one week old.  Praise the Lord!!!  God is Good!!!

Holdin' tight to that passy!

First Feeding (he's hold the bottle)

First Family Photo

Motherhood......
Where to begin!  Well, I love being a Mommy!  It's the most wonderful feeling to look into your baby's eyes and know that you were part of creating such a precious life!  The unconditional love that I feel every time I look at Brinson is completely overwhelming and all-consuming.  There have been many times that I look into his sweet little face and just fallen to pieces.  Not because I am sad, but because I am so overcome with joy, happiness and love.  I will not lie and say it has all been a cake walk!  I have thought to myself, "what have I done";  however, for every one time I have thought that, there have been a thousand times where I thought "wow, look what I have done". 

The car ride home

He's always thinking about something!

Being a mom is scary, too!  I cannot stand to have him out of my sight.  I am so concerned that something is going to happen to him, and I am not going to know what to do.  I wake up multiple times during the night just to make sure he is still breathing.  Whenever he drinks his bottle too fast and begins to choke and gag, I start crying!  He spit up the other day, and I thought something was seriously wrong!  I never pictured myself as the over-protective parent, but I am, and I cannot help it!  Although I know it is impossible, I am on a quest to be the "perfect mommy".  Again, not something I ever thought I would do.  However, I cannot help myself.  I know that I am going to make mistakes, but I am trying my best!  Despite my future mistakes, I am sure that no matter what, Brinson will always love me and think that I truly am a "perfect mommy"!

"Will you please quit taking my picture"

Sweetest Face Ever!  I love this pic!!!